countless yesterdays that were supposed to be more

entry number 200 or so

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Sun, 23 Feb 2003 16:56:45 GMT

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. this is an entry. i'm bored. i'm tired. i just woke up. i want to go back to sleep. i don't want to go back to school tomorrow. maybe i'll drop out and become a monk or something. jackie gets home today.

yesterday i hung out with mike and marge. we watched the toxic avenger part 2, and then went to the china pacific. blah blah blah, they came over. we went to play pool. blah blah blah. then we just watched degrassi and just deal. and that's it; they left.

i went to bed around 3. i'm just sitting her now. maybe jeremy will come over today.

<3<3devin

quiz

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Sat, 22 Feb 2003 05:31:43 GMT

i saw old school today with joel.

tell yourself it's not the end.

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Fri, 21 Feb 2003 03:50:06 GMT

the past few days, i've been spending with jackie. she came over tuesday, and i went over yesterday, and today. we've fallen asleep everyday together. it's so great. i'm in love, isn't that great? almost 7 months. well, she's leaving tomorrow, and hopefully she can persuade her parents to let her come over for an hour or two before she goes. i really want to see her <3.

here are some quizes i took:

You are the candyman, fucked up name right? WEll
don't be fooled you kill all the loved ones
just to see your prey suffer than try to bring
them into your force!!! You are definately a
sick fuck!!!

Which slasher killer are you
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Dark metalcore with a little emo; You are From
Autumn To Ashes.

What long island hardcore band are you?
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You are Beloved. You're emo to the core, but you're
also Christian to the core. try not to cry
about God or Jesus please!

What Emo bands are you most like?
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What Thursday Song Are You?
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You are Geoff Rickly, the lead vocalist of the
band. He has very unique interests and
hobbies. His accomplishments include producing
a CD for the band My Chemical Romance.

Which Member of the band Thursday Are You??
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kldfgjdflgjq

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Thu, 20 Feb 2003 00:54:16 GMT

i went over jackies. here mom walked in on us getting freaky. she didn't know, though. thank god.

In the middle of it all-You don't care where or how
hard you get hit, punched, kicked, or thrown.
Bring it on. You're tough and hardcore. No need
to avoid the crazy people, you're one of them

Where Are You In the Mosh Pit?
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cut my wrists over and over

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Wed, 19 Feb 2003 17:50:53 GMT

yep. again i sit here waiting.

jackie came over yesterday. we watched some of one hour photo. i continued to watch it around 3:30 in the morning. i couldn't sleep.

jackie was supposed to call almost a half hour ago, and i doubt she'll call soon, even though we're supposed to hang out.

i'm going to go do something.

</3devin

it's a monster! ahhhh!

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Wed, 19 Feb 2003 06:10:48 GMT

hey hey hey! it's the t-dawg (tanyastar). i have just made devin's journal the sexiest thang ever. you know it. and i made him that new sexay icon as well. oooooooo yeah. now i feel a need to update his journal! woot!

*t-dawg to the extreme*
(taking over livejournals everywhere)

bonah

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Tue, 18 Feb 2003 19:15:25 GMT

You're not punk. You know you're not punk. You don't listen to punk music. You don't wear punk outfits. You don't care about politics. Why did you take this test??

Whats Yer Punk?

Who are you?

i'm waiting for jackie to come over tonight:)

on the phone.

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Tue, 18 Feb 2003 00:32:34 GMT

i'm on the phone with amanda.

i've come to establish the fact that she is completely and utterly retarded. she is very stupid, even though she hates me, she is my best friend. she just said she didn't hate me because i am talking about what i am writting. amanda sucks cocks for a living. she just laughed. what an idiot, she should stop laughing right now. she just said okay, so apparently she is stopping. thank god.

<3<3devin

bored.

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Mon, 17 Feb 2003 16:37:31 GMT

so here was my weekend:

friday: you already know what went on friday, jackie was over. my flowers from her are already dead, and starting to wilt. but that's okay. i ate all the cookies she gave me and folded the poem up and put it in my wallet.

saturday: i didn't get to talk to jackie til around 4, and i was sick of waiting around, so i made plans with joel. she got pissed at me, but her friend had to tell me, not her, because i guess she can't tell me things. but whatever. me and joel saw the recruit, and it was really good.

sunday: my mom took me to chili's, and to see the lord of the rings: the two towers. it was really good, well both, chili's and lord of the rings: two towers, that is. i got the newer remembering never cd, she looks so good in red. i watched the 300th episode of the simpsons, that was a funny one. well, i saw the end of the one at 7:30, the whole one at 8:00, and 8:30. blah blah blah.

monday: monday hasn't really happened yet, but we're gonna have shitty weather. i just woke up. i think i'm going to go back to bed.

<3<3devin

quiz

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Sat, 15 Feb 2003 18:41:42 GMT

The Hope Conspiracy, taking things straight to the
point and not easing up.

What hardcore band are you in?
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valentines day

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Sat, 15 Feb 2003 01:48:07 GMT

i love jackie so much. she is rigt next to me now, and yeah.

<3devin

slkdfhslkfhklsdf

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Thu, 13 Feb 2003 18:37:00 GMT
today wasn't that bad.

first i had....... geometry, and we took a test. i got a 60. that is better than i normally do. :D

the next block that i had was 4, which was kosciak, and we just read a section about world war 1, and then we took a quiz. i got an 80 on the quiz.

the next class i had was foods. we made cookies. they were really good.

the next class was bolio. she was actually nice today. she gave us tea because it was really cold in there. i repayed her with a heart shapedcookie, haha, the only one that i tried to shape like a heart, and i hit on her. :P

then we had lunch. blah blah, you know the what goes on there.

now i'm in spanish. we took a test. it was a joke. i found like mike, so i guess we're watching that next. i should bring in the tox box so we can watch that.

i'm going to go to the mall with mike today, he needs to get something for his girlfriend.

josh talked to mustachio, and he wants her vag.

<3<3devin

can we start again

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Wed, 12 Feb 2003 20:57:03 GMT

You're Jack Skellington! The Bonedaddy himself!
Post this result in your journal or anywhere
else your little heart desires!

Which Character From "Tim Burton's The Nightmare Before Christmas" Are YOU?
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sick show last night

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Mon, 10 Feb 2003 20:48:34 GMT
yeah, so last night was the bane show.

me and tony left around 4, then stopped at tonilee's for like 5 minutes, then left for the show, again. haha. we got there, took off our coats, and waited in line. then we went and walked around cos we still had a half hour before doors even opened. we spotted tony's old neighbor and made up a story about how i'm a transfer student from paris, texas. haha. she bought it. then we got back in line, but cut nancy, derek's ex-girlfriend.

the first band to go on was some kind of hate. they really fucking sucked. i hate shitty hardcore. i didn't pay much attention to them at all. they were wicked wicked bad.

the next band to go one was the promise. they were wicked good. i love deathwish bands. converge and the horror show are two of my favorite deathwish bands. but yeah, the promise was wicked good, and they didn't do much talking, but more playing. they seemed to be really into it.

the third band to go on was most precious blood. they were wicked good. they're one of my favorite bands right now. it was nice seeing them last night. they played the knot, the lantern, apparition, sincerly, and two others that i missed because i was walking around with julie. i later on met there singer, tom, and he signed my ticket.

julie brought me onto the floor for terror. i don't like terror that much, well, i would if they didn't keep going 'motherfucker,' 'fuck,' 'shit,' and open up saying 'yo we're motherfucking terror from LA. suck a dick.' they were pretty stupid. the floor was nuts. i hit some kid in the face, and then just stood back while people danced. i got rushed a few times. good times.

the next band to come on was bane. they were so good. they opened up with speachless, i believe, and then played songs like ante up, and can we start again. they didn't play too many songs, but it was well worth it. i talked to petey chilton cos eric, his brother, was my technology teacher last year, and got his signature, and a bane zip up.

the last band to go on was reach the sky. they were pretty stupid though. i don't like bands that swear a lot live. i just want to hear the music, ya know. me and tony left early during them, though it was there last show, we still left early. we handed out flyers outside for a half hour, and then came home.

i got in around 10:55. i talked to jackie til about 11:30-11:45, then went to bed. woke up around 6, took a shower, got dressed. you know the rutine. went to school.

here's my day at school:

foods: we went to the computer lab, and did a food survey. we're making pancakes tomorrow. mmn-mmm.

english: we took a test on a tale of two cities. i think i did okay for not reading it.

history: we took a quiz, got an 80. then i fell asleep.

lunch: sat with derek, amanda, mike, jeff, justin and sam.

geo: sat in the back of the classroom with amanda and talked about stuff. and listened to the test review.

spanish: did nothing. got my quiz back, got a 100. it was a joke. then i watched kindergarten cop. haha. she lets me do whatever i want.

so here i am, i'm talking to erik, and jackie. and i'm gonna go.

<3<3devin

quiz.

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Sun, 09 Feb 2003 18:58:21 GMT

You are Danny. You have a strange interest in
pirates and listen to crappy straight edge
hardcore bands.

Which Time To Fly Guy Are You?
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i'm waiting for tony to get her, he should be here soon, and jackie to come on and talk to me before i go to the bane show tonight.

<3<3devin

update for the lack of days.

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Sun, 09 Feb 2003 18:29:18 GMT
i don't know the last day that i updated on so i'll start with friday:

friday: we had a snow day, so i hung around my house til around 2:00, and then i went over jackie's house. we took a nap together in the afternoon because we were home alone, and then we just watched captain ron that night, and her dad made me a veggie burger cos i like them bad boys. then i left around 9:10. i came home, watched some tv, and then i just went to bed.

saturday: i woke up around 10 because the sun was shining in on me, then i went downtown and rented fight club and windtalkers. i called jackie around 1:00, and i went over. we watched fight club. then we just hung around for awhile. had another veggie burger :) and we yeah. did 'stuff'. :-P that's about it. we also layed in her bed, and listened to from autumn to ashes. it was wicked cool. my mom came and got me, and i got in around 10:30. then i just talked to her on the net for an hour and she called me and we talked til 1.

sunday: today hasn't really happened yet. i got up around 10:30, got dressed, shovled out my gramma's car, and then went to Wrights Farm to get food for my aunts birthday. she's 39 today. right now, i'm sitting around, waiting for jackie to come on, and tony to come over so we can go see Bane, Reach The Sky, Most Precious Blood, The Promise, Some Kind of Hate and, AN. should be a good show tonight. i'll update when i get home from it.

so yeah. i'm going to continue to wait for someone to come on, or come over, and then leave.

<3<3devin

word.

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Feb 2003 23:10:35 GMT
i'm sitting in my room. i'm bored. i like this song, even though it's like... shitty rap. it goes like this:

If your reading this
Then I finally did it
I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye
There was no time
Understand I was stressed
Living day to day was hard
And I gave it my best
But there was nothing left
For me in this world
To convince me to stay
Now I'm long gone away
Don't you do that
Don't you start your tears
Just remember all the time we spent over the years
Never cried
Never think bad to me
What's done is done and that's the way it had to be
I need you to be strong for me
Say your prayer everyday in my memory
I'm sure it's helping me
To earn my feathers
To get some wings
And a halo and a harp and angelic things
And even though I'm gone And outta sight
Never worry about me
I'm alright

I'm alright
And if I should die
Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside
I'm alright
And everytime you cry don't breakdown
Just keep me inside in your mind

You only saw the outside
Never knew what I was feeling
Now everyday you lay in bed staring at the ceiling
But you don't see me no more
You can fill your heart with memories
And thanks from before
But everybody got a purpose in life
To survive when the sunrise
You gonna live to see another day
Just don't follow me and live your life your own way
I'll be in set and if you forget
Get the picture with the cord around my neck
See me underground and I'm stuck
But it's cool that's where I wanna be
Keep the drama in hand but outta sight
And know that
I'mma be alright

I'm alright
And if I should die
Don't blame yourself and keep it locked inside
I'm alright
And everytime you cry don't breakdown
Just keep me inside in your mind

it's pretty good. i'm going to go now.

</3 devin.

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Feb 2003 01:13:08 GMT
devin is my best friend, and he is so fun :)
everyone go visit him on the 21st, he needs your cookies , cards, hugs, and kisses because he will be hurting.

bye now

tina.ashleigh

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Feb 2003 01:06:13 GMT
hi , this is devin and i love kris roe.
kris roe and i are secret lovers... did you know that? i bet you didnt, because its a secret. but its not much of a secret now, is it. and my friend tina, shes going to have kris's babies because she is kris's other secret lover.
did i mention matt skiba? yeah, we're pretty tight too.

:)

motherfuck, mrs. march ain't here!

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Mon, 03 Feb 2003 18:53:26 GMT
mr. g is our sub right now in spanish. there's 5 minutes left of school. here's an overview of my day:

block 7: geometry. we sat around, and did some group work, and that's about it.
block 4: history. we did a map, and colored it in, and then we just watched some of the 60 minutes about North Korea.
block 6: foods. we made no-bake cookies. they look like lumps of shit. but they taste so good.
block 3: english. we took a vocab quiz, and did some shit on tale of two cities.
lunch: ate fries, and some mozzeralla sticks, and two powerades.
block 5: spanish. we did nothing. i have mr. g for a sub. me and matt played games. i'm sitting her listening to from autumn to ashes. there's now 3 minutes left. and i am leaving.

update later.

<3<3devin

blah blah blah

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Sun, 02 Feb 2003 19:37:18 GMT
so yeah. i woke up around like. i don't know 10:45? 11:00? and i just waited around for jackie to come on, and then, yeah, she finally did, and i told her to come over, and guess what.... she did!

she got here at like 2. she crept into my room slowly, trying to scare me cos i had music on really loudly, and then yeah. i gave her a huge hug, and i spun her around. then we layed in my bed, watched dawn of the dead, and talked for awhile, among other things. the nighttime came, and we started to watch degrassi high season finalle, which she hadn't seen but i had. it was a great time. then we watched just deal. she left around 10. it was nice seeing her again, because, i probably won't see her at all this upcoming weekend, since she's going to norton, she thinks, for her sisters swim meet. friday is our 6 month anniversary. that rocks to the extreme. i'll see her a lot the next weekend, cos it's february vacation. i think we're hanging out everyday, until the 20th when i have surgery, but i think she's coming to visit me. that's going to be fucking shitty, but all better, since i can see jackie, due to her coming to visit me.

people i expect to visit me:
(1) Derek Dolan
(2) Ashliegh G.
(3) Amanda Zonghi
(4) Gugs
(5) Wyoming
(6) Mike D
(7) Joel and Tony
(9) Faith
(10) Tanya
(jackie is given, so she's not needed on this list)

So yeah. Then she left around 10, and I went and watched a movie, well part of motel hell, with my mom. then i came upstairs, talked to jackie til 3, put on deranged, and got too scared to go to sleep. i think i went to sleep when the sun was up, since i didn't want anyone coming after me.

i woke up at the same time as yesterday. it was weird. then i just hung around the house all day, and now i'm waiting for jackie to come on to tell me wheni can come over, but i don't think i'm going to go over, ocs it's almost 2:40 right now, and it's going to be a waste for going out for about 3 hours, and then coming home. though, it's not a complete waste, but it's getting too late to hang out.

well, i think i'm going to go hang around for awhile longer, and just... yeah do nothing, cos that's all i'm probably going to do today.

<3<3devin

penis

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Fri, 31 Jan 2003 18:48:24 GMT
i'm sitting in spanish with jeremy. we're watching kindergarten cop. this class is a joke. mrs. march is a bad teacher, but this class is an easy A so it's fine.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEREK MATHEW DOLAN! YOU'RE FINALLY 17!

<3<3devin

blah blah

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Tue, 28 Jan 2003 12:18:42 GMT
i'm going to the doctors soon today.

it's been awhile since i've updated.

so here's everything that i've done in the past few days:

saturday: i woke up around noon, at some food, talked to jackie, then proceeded to tony's house for band practice, since we had a show that night. we practice for a littled bit, then headed up to the trance buddha. it was fun. though we did play dead last, we still had a great time jamming out for the 40 people or so that stayed to see some good ole' hardcore. the worst part of the night was being avoided by someone. but! after the show, tony took me out for food, and we had soem breakfast around 1:00 am. it was good.

sunday: i went to the mall, and i got a used sticker, and a poison the well one, to add onto my bass. my bass now has a red mercury, the used, poison the well, allegory index, and velocity engine stickers on it. i like it a lot. then i just hung around for awhile, until i called jackie that night, and we talked til 3.

monday: i went to school. classes changed. zac is in my health class. it rocks. that class is going to be a lot of fun due to zac being in there. so yeah. had school, came home, talked to jackie, and then i slept until 6. i was so tired from the other night. then, i woke up ate, blah blah, you know the rutine. then, i called jackie, and we talked for a little bit, til about 12:30 or so, and i fell asleep.

tuesday: the day isn't over yet, but it's 7:17 am, and i'm going to the doctors soon. i'm missing my block 1, and 6 class most likely today. so yeah. i'm going to get some breakfast before i leave, i'm fucking starving.

<3devin

two kids in a beat up nova

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Thu, 23 Jan 2003 02:12:08 GMT
So... Today.

I went to school, for the first day back after 5 day weekend. I'm happy about that, not going back, but the 4-day weekend I am happy about.

So I got to school. I take Biology first, and we just made a notecard for our midterm friday. Kind of boring. The next class was Spanish. We had the midterm in there. It was a joke. I was done in 20 or less minutes. I bet I got at least a 90 on it, too. That class is a joke.

So then, after that, I got to English, and I tell Bolio I've got to puke, and I leave. Honestly, I didn't want to be there. So I went to the nurse, said I threw up and had the shits, and she sent me home. I had two classes, then I left. It was quite fun. I just sat home and watched the Nightmare on Elm Street series. :)

I've got to go to school tomorrow, fuck. I got English. Lunch block... and you know what that means... ALL 3 lunches, baby.

So, right now, I'm going to talk to Jackie, and lay down.

<3<3devin

quiz

getupdevin@hotmail.com — Mon, 20 Jan 2003 05:42:43 GMT
whats your name? devin
when were you born? may 2 87
do you go to school? yeah sophmore
do you have a job? naw
who was your first celebrity crush? no one
what was the first movie you ever saw in a theatre? mmmmmmm i don't know
what was the last? 25th hour
what was the first CD you ever bought for yourself? no clue, green day maybe?
what was the last? underoath
when you were a kid what did you want to be when you grew up? a ghostbuster
what do you want to be now? something with computers
who was your first favorite band? ah jesus... like, black sabbath. i was always into the rock and the eh roll.
who is your current favorite band? atreyu, boysnightout, or most precious blood
what were your New Years resolutions last year? no clue
what are they this year? jackie was over :-)
why do you like your best friend? no clue

YOUR CURRENT TOP 3:

songs:
1. Most Precious Blood - Apparition
2. Atreyu - A Song For The Optimists
3. Eighteen Visions - Love In Autumn

movies:
1. Full Metal Jacket
2. The Big Lebowski
3. Dawn of the Dead

CDs:
Underoath | Changing of Times
Eighteen Visions | Vanity
Poison the Well | Tear From the Red / Opposite of December

Books:
Catcher In the Rye

Foods:
Veggie Burgers
Ramen

MORE CRAP:
whos your favorite super hero? bat man
whos your favortie super-villan? the joker
what do you do for fun? sleep
are you cool? indeed i am
are you a geek? naw
are you/were you cool in high school? no way
what are you wearing right now? grey converge shirt, dickies jeans, blue boxers
how are you feeling? tired
what is in your CD player right now? norma jean, most precious blood and poison the well
whats your favorite smell? jackie
do you ever lie? sometimes
what movie is in your VCR/DVD player right now? dvd --- fear dot com
do you do drugs? sometimes
what do you want to name your kids? i don't care
have you ever given someone a bath? nope
have you ever gone sky-diving? no
whos your favorite cartoon character? ginger (as told by ginger)
favorite word? fuck.
when was the last time you cried? a few days ago.
how would you like to be remembered? i dont want to be remembered.
what does your screen name symbolise? thursday
what color is your hair? naturally brown. but now, black with auburn red
your eyes? green and then fades out to blue.
your undies? blue.
what does your room look like? messy.
if you could be invisible for one day what would you do? kill you.
have you ever made yourself throw up? so i wouldnt have to go to school
what is the last website you visited? LJ
who is the last person you called? mike
do you wear glasses? yes.
are you tired of this?? yeah